Footsteps To Freedom

I have been trying to stay on point with my writing and information. I have been so busy working I was working tirelessly, but then it dawned on me that I had lost track of my priorities. I must get back to those things that make me happy and make me feel like I am moving toward my purpose. There is nothing wrong with having a career. But life is short, and we must be aware of our priorities. We spend our entire lives living for someone else or living vicariously through someone else. Especially women. I am not taking anything from the men out there, I know they are making their moves. But as women, we tend to give more.

We get burned out quickly and lose ourselves showing or proving that we can do it all. But why do we have to do it all? Why do we have to!? I was sitting in my office looking at a blank screen because I was so tired that I did not have the energy to type or start my post. But I could not do it. I just did not have the energy to do it.

I was upset with myself. Mainly because over the last few years, I have worked two jobs. One full-time and one part-time. I work at least fifteen hours a day. I love my career. I am in my element at work. But I work hard. After that fifteen-hour job, I come home and have to be a wife and a friend, and a listener. But not before I take a shower, find something to wear to work the next day, and pay bills. I take some calls from my children or my sisters. I never had a good sleep pattern so no matter how exhausted I am, I still cannot sleep. I get maybe four hours of sleep a night and even I know that’s not enough time. But I continue to keep this regimen up.

I must stop giving so much of myself away. It’s not healthy for me. And truthfully, I am unhappy in my life. My only saving grace is I have a relationship with God. I get the opportunity to talk to Him a lot. He is what keeps me going.

I haven’t blogged in months, and I cannot keep doing this. I must find time for myself and for my craft of writing and blogging. Here I am.

The point is to give time to you. If you continue to give and give, at some point you are going to burn out and have nothing left for yourself. Family is wonderful but we must find space and time for us. If we do not do this. We will start to resent ourselves for not slowing down. We must put a value on ourselves and what we want for us. I’ve always wanted to be a motivational speaker and travel around speaking about domestic violence and substance use prevention, but I work fifteen hours a day and I have no time to develop a plan to do this because everything else takes precedence. But still, I think I must do it all, I cannot take off my superwoman cape and just be me.

I am learning ways to compartmentalize my life and the things I have on my plate. I hope this blog helps someone who may be having trouble removing her cape.

According to Openworld.com, here are six ways you can benefit from compartmentalizing:

1. Remove Distractions. Distractions are the main thing getting in the way of productivity.
2. Fix a Schedule for Your Day. …
3. Allow Yourself Some Time To Relax. …
4. Don’t Make False Connections. …
5. Try To Focus. …
6. Build Healthy Boundaries.

These things can help you compartmentalize and build boundaries. Once we can build those boundaries, things may become more manageable for us. I don’t know about anyone else, but I cannot wait to take my cape off. I want to run in the rain, smell the flowers. I want to drive down the highway with the sunroof open and feel the sun beam down on my head. I want to just run away from home and stay in a log cabin in the mountains without phones. I want to binge-watch funny movies and read my bible. Those things will bring me peace of mind and a sense of calmness in my spirit.

I don’t want to make false connections. Honestly, the only connection I want to make is with my Heavenly Father. He has always been a confidant and friend. I’ve cried tears and felt his hand wipe them away. I’ve been in pain and heard him cry with me. Those are things I miss in my busy life. Moving so much that I cannot hear the silence anymore.

But enough about me. Get the lesson and use it if you want.