Footsteps To Freedom

No matter how much you love someone or how much you want to support someone; there comes a time we you must let go! For your better health, for your mental health, for your sanity! We hold on to people we love and care about because we see in them what they do not see in themselves. We think that if we hold on long enough, they will start to see what we see, but we are wrong! It hurts to see the people we love and care about die in front of us, destroy their lives right in front of us. It is like watching a scary movie. We cover our eyes, peek through our fingers, and watch the horror unfold. We try and scream NOOOOO! But it is too late, the devastation of their choices and decisions become manifested and they perish.

It hurts to let go. It hurts to stop caring. It hurts to turn your back, but we must! If we don’t, we will perish and they will live on.

I trust God’s word with all my heart. I believe when I pray, that my prayers will be answered. My heart is heavy, and my eyes are stinging. I am exhausted and tired of always being there and always having all the strength. So now my prayers are for God to teach me how to let go. Teach me how to wait on Him and His promises. Physically, my heart hurts. Mentally, I am spent! Emotionally, I cannot cry anymore. Spiritually, I am empty. I need God to pour into me. Help me! Help me and teach me how to wait.

No matter how much you love someone, how much you want to support someone; there comes a time when we must let go. But fear of losing them stifles the letting go, fear of them being left to their own devices frightens us to hold on a little while longer. How do we love them, and let them go? How do we resolve in our minds that things are going to be ok, when we’ve seen this outcome time and time again?

Lord! Teach me how to wait. Teach me how to let go. Teach me how to love them and not hurt because I must let go! One day, I will have the peace of mind that I deserve so much. I don’t know when but I know God’s promise is to have peace that surpasses all understanding.